Colin doesn't know what Bene does to himself in the semi-privacy of his own room, but he knows what he himself does. And he definitely doesn't want to deal with Bene in too much pain. They'll really need to work up to that.

You or me what? he almost says. Um. I guess you could fuck me if I can see you, would be a more useful alternative, but it makes him cringe internally just to think it. While he's accepted there's just some level of awkwardness to expect from sex, he doesn't want to flat-out ruin the mood.

Then he thinks of a way and regains a little of that smile, leaning in.

"Take me," he murmurs against Bene's ear.